year 2 :D

firstly, i'm glad to said that i'm year two student now...haha...
although i know that i might face a lot of hard work or subject in future...
but i told myself this i what i was chosen...
i cant regret for all this...
since i'm interested in this course from the beginning...banker is my dream in this few years after started my first job after form six...
from the beginning i knew that i didnt have account base and this course included few account subject...
i hope that i can survive until graduate...
it is different in this semester...
because i'm only one who stay in the room...
and my room mate go for operation...
i feel lonely and scary at the night time...
previously when i cant sleep and i will talk to her or share what happened on that day...
but now when i feel sad and emotional,i dunno who i'm gonna to find...
but people must learn to be brave and strong especially for girl...
i'm not satisfied with the first year result...
i hope i can obtain better result compare to past three semester...

secondly, i think that you are not in my heart during the semester break...
but now is different story...
i cant betray to anyone...
i need to think only friendship between us...
no other relationship...
i cant loss the game from now on...
this is the phrase that always remind myself to get away from you...
i tried to do that but end up i loss...
this is not the solution...
the only way is just let it pass and return to normal...
appreciate you as my friend....

四月最后一天

今天是四月的最后一天。。。
对你来说，我都不大重要。。。
请不要把我们看的太重。。。
因为你现在最想看到的不是我，而是另一个她。。。
这一年我们都很开心，谢谢您。。。

unforgettable memories

you had gave me a lot of beautiful memories in my life...although you wouldn't know what i say now...i hope you wont know ever...thanks you are being in my life almost a year...you help me and teach me a lot...you always make some fun to me and can say almost everyday...i believe that if a person getting hurt by two times,the feeling is not good and getting hurt...maybe i was thought too much...i felt sorry and regret to one people who is important to me...i don't dare to tell him because i scare that he will leave me when i tell him the truth...maybe it is not the truth...i still don't know...but i hope it is last time before i'm getting hurt for third time...i should set boundary from the beginning of the day...i should not close and talk too much to you...i think that if i do like that i will feel happy and more comfortable...i want to thank my dear friend....she is the one who advise me a lot and ask me don't think too much...i shouldn't has a hope on you because i know that i'm belong to other people...i tell myself i will keep a distance with you from now on...lastly,thank you so much...

dear...

谢谢你陪了我那么多天，你说到做到了。。。

虽然你很忙，可以我知道你为了我们的未来而努力。。

爱你哦。。。哈哈。。。

truth??

在这世界上，很多人对所有的事情都有不同的看法。。。

人长大了，对很多事情的看法都不一样。。。

一个女生除了想事业有成之外，还想找到一个可以全心全意爱她的人，

可以在她有困难时帮助她，

给她适当的安慰，

在她做错事情的时候要懂得包容她，

这样一个男生也应该很难找吧。。。

人没有十全十美的，我们爱上对方是因为大家的优点和缺点。。。

曾经我有一个想法，就是我跟他到底适合继续在一起吗？

我们是两个无论性格或对事情的看法都有所不同。。。

这样的一对情侣可以维持到永远吗？

到现在我没有答案或许应该珍惜当下。。。

有一个真相我都不敢把他说出来，也许那是我想太多。。。

最近听了首歌。。。

有句歌词很适合用在这里。。。

把真相一一埋葬在心底。。。

你听到吗我的心 依然在那里等待你来翻阅。。。

march and april

i felt mentally and physically tired in these two month. first of all, my beloved grandmother was passed away without any symptom. when i heard this news, i felt sad and wanna went back home immediately. she gave us much memories and we will remember it forever. we should appreciate family and friend around us. because tomorrow is uncertainty.you wouldn't know what will happen on tomorrow and future.

secondly, one of my friend said wanna break our friendship.it is a long story for us.but what i want to tell him is love is part of our life. although we cant get love, but still have many different part wait you to do in our life. YOU should be mature on this. like what we say you still got many choices in your future life. dont give up because of this.

i hope that bad affairs will gone as soon as possible. i'm waiting for my holiday and back to home enjoy my life. FRIENDSHIP WILL NEVER END UP EASILY.

midnight

although you are busy for all the time, but i keep waiting you every night time...

this is hard for me...

should i keep waiting or just let you busy all the time??

you think that i'm strong girl in your mind but it doesn't mean that i need not you be my side...

i will feel sadness and want to give up for this...

but i had thought many thing that i shouldn't give up because i know you love me...

so what should i do?

do you tell me??